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Fanmix: Poison (1/1)

TITLE: Poison

AUTHOR: sapphicwarrior

PAIRING: Callie/Erica of course

RATING: PG-13

SUMMARY: A look inside the head of Erica between 5.05 and 5.06.  Possible spoilers for 5.06.  You’ll probably notice that I’m not real positive about the storyline they are giving Callie and Erica.  So don’t expect this to be a happy story. It’s not. It’s actually pretty sad. Sorry about that.

DISCLAIMER: The characters of Grey’s Anatomy are property of ABC and Shonda Rhimes.  No copyright infringement intended. 

The song is use for this is “Poison” by Alice Cooper.  The lyrics aren’t mine, but belong to him.
If I'd knew how, I'd attach the song as mp3 to this post, but I have no idea how to do this... :-(


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Now playing: happy hardcore-alice cooper - poison dance re-mix
via FoxyTunes    

I sit in my office at work, enjoying the quietness it brings.  It’s a safe place for me to escape to when I want to be alone or process some stuff. And now I definitely need to do both.  I take a sip of my coffee and sit back in my chair.  My thoughts drift back.

 

Your cruel device

You blood like ice

One look could kill

My pain, your thrill

 

I still feel the pain when Callie said she couldn’t do this, us, the touching, the girl-on-girl sex.  She doesn’t know it, but she broke my heart by saying that.  I know she’s insecure, but instead of talking to me about it, she talks to Mark.  At least I hope it’s just talking they do…

 

I wanna love you, but I better not touch

I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop

I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much

I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

 

By nature, I’m not a touching person, not at all.  I’m actually pretty reserved when it comes to that, especially at work. But not with Callie, with her it flows naturally.  Like I’ve never done anything else.  I simply can’t resist touching her when talking to her.  She never minded the touching, but she’s freaking out now.

I wanna kiss her, she has the softest lips ever.  When I kiss her, a bolt of electricity goes to through my body.  I’ve never felt like this before. And I know she feels that too. But when I kiss her, she freaks out even more.

 

You’re poison running’ through my veins

You’re poison, so I don’t wanna break these chains

 

Somehow I feel it in my veins that you aren’t just talking to Mark.  I know what you did with him when Addison thought we were a couple.  But I had really thought you were over that.  I don’t know what will happen to my heart if 

No I can’t think about that.  I feel tears coming up.  I swallow them down. Erica Hahn doesn’t cry.  But I can’t stop them.

 

Your mouth, so hot

Your web, I’m caught

Your skin, so wet

black lace on sweat

 

I think back about my encounter with Callie in the on-call room. Though I swore to myself I would never have sex in an on-call room, Callie in her red bra was just too gorgeous to resist.  She has to most beautiful body I’ve ever seen.  I still feel her lips on me, she kissed me in places I’ve never been kissed before. I close my eyes and will the crying to stop.

 

We went to my place and this morning we woke up together. It was the most wonderful feeling I ever experienced.  It felt so natural to wake up next to her.  It didn’t feel weird or awkward.  You assured me you felt fine.  We were almost late for work. That had never happened to me before. But it was worth it.

 

I hear you calling and it’s needles and pins

I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name

Don’t wanna touch you, but you’re under my skin

I wanna kiss you, but your lips are venomous poison

 

At work you freaked out again. You ignored me, you wouldn’t even look at me. With each heartbeat I feel my heart breaking a little more. I’m falling and I’m falling deep and hard.  But there’s no one to catch me.  No one thinks that Dr. Erica Hahn can fall… but when I saw you going into that on-call room together with Mark, smiling and touching him…  I realized that you’re poison to me, a poison that I simply can’t resist and therefore will be fatal for my heart.

 

You’re poison running through my veins

You’re poison, I don’t wanna break these chains

Poison

 

“Callie, what have you done to me?” I whisper to myself and break out in sobs. 

I sit in my office at work, enjoying the quietness it brings.  It’s a safe place for me to escape to when I want to be alone or process some stuff. And now I definitely need to do both.  I take a sip of my coffee and sit back in my chair.  My thoughts drift back.

 

Your cruel device

You blood like ice

One look could kill

My pain, your thrill

 

I still feel the pain when Callie said she couldn’t do this, us, the touching, the girl-on-girl sex.  She doesn’t know it, but she broke my heart by saying that.  I know she’s insecure, but instead of talking to me about it, she talks to Mark.  At least I hope it’s just talking they do…

 

I wanna love you, but I better not touch

I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop

I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much

I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

 

By nature, I’m not a touching person, not at all.  I’m actually pretty reserved when it comes to that, especially at work. But not with Callie, with her it flows naturally.  Like I’ve never done anything else.  I simply can’t resist touching her when talking to her.  She never minded the touching, but she’s freaking out now.

 

I wanna kiss her, she has the softest lips ever.  When I kiss her, a bolt of electricity goes to through my body.  I’ve never felt like this before. And I know she feels that too. But when I kiss her, she freaks out even more.

 

You’re poison running’ through my veins

You’re poison, so I don’t wanna break these chains

 

Somehow I feel it in my veins that you aren’t just talking to Mark.  I know what you did with him when Addison thought we were a couple.  But I had really thought you were over that.  I don’t know what will happen to my heart if 

No I can’t think about that.  I feel tears coming up.  I swallow them down. Erica Hahn doesn’t cry.  But I can’t stop them.

 

 

Your mouth, so hot

Your web, I’m caught

Your skin, so wet

black lace on sweat

 

I think back about my encounter with Callie in the on-call room. Though I swore to myself I would never have sex in an on-call room, Callie in her red bra was just too gorgeous to resist.  She has to most beautiful body I’ve ever seen.  I still feel her lips on me, she kissed me in places I’ve never been kissed before. I close my eyes and will the crying to stop.

 

We went to my place and this morning we woke up together. It was the most wonderful feeling I ever experienced.  It felt so natural to wake up next to her.  It didn’t feel weird or awkward.  You assured me you felt fine.  We were almost late for work. That had never happened to me before. But it was worth it.

 

I hear you calling and it’s needles and pins

I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name

Don’t wanna touch you, but you’re under my skin

I wanna kiss you, but your lips are venomous poison

 

At work you freaked out again. You ignored me, you wouldn’t even look at me. With each heartbeat I feel my heart breaking a little more. I’m falling and I’m falling deep and hard.  But there’s no one to catch me.  No one thinks that Dr. Erica Hahn can fall… but when I saw you going into that on-call room together with Mark, smiling and touching him…  I realized that you’re poison to me, a poison that I simply can’t resist and therefore will be fatal for my heart.

 

You’re poison running through my veins

You’re poison, I don’t wanna break these chains

Poison

 

“Callie, what have you done to me?” I whisper to myself and break out in sobs. 

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Comments

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sapphicwarrior
Oct. 29th, 2008 02:03 pm (UTC)
no, didn't really mean for the story to repeat itself. Glad you liked it. Love your icon by the way!
lytab5
Oct. 29th, 2008 02:40 pm (UTC)
You know, "Poison" is like my personal Callica hymn - so you already had me at the song.
I really like your story - great insight to Ericas mind.
And this - "She never minded the touching, but she’s freaking out now." - is my favorite line because it's the exact thing I was asking myself during the last episode.
Thanks for posting!
sapphicwarrior
Oct. 29th, 2008 02:43 pm (UTC)
thank you :-)
x0xmarie0x0
Oct. 29th, 2008 02:53 pm (UTC)
Oh it's so sad... but so ''right'' I guess !!
Anyway, you write it perfectly...
Just hope my little shipper heart will no break in 100 pieces tommorow...

xxx
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